"One More Song"

Heavy Souls

Heartfelt screams

the ongoing energy of the crowd, united

the flow the heat the intensity

Passion sung from sore lungs

Truth breathed with bruised throats

Conviction spewed onto hungry ears

Relevance whispered from eager mouths

The show must go on, the kids will never quit

The beat lives long past the last encore

With full hearts and a new vigor to destroy the lies,

WE WILL FACE THE DAY WITHOUT FEAR.

We will spit in the face of rejection

We will beat down the spirits of adversary

They will take no prisoners & we will drive the nails this time

And as their blood fills the cracks of the earth;

Our cries will cease.

Our numbness disappears. We stand forgiven.

The enemy is dead and Victory is ours!

Yet we will not sleep, We will not become weak.

Remain ever vigilant, always eager...

to do it all again...

And when the next chance to throwdown comes along....

...GET OUT OF OUR WAY.

WE ARE SICK OF THE FAKERS SO SICK OF THE HYPOCRITES

Lie down and die or GET UP AND LIVE.

NO middle ground exists where we tread.

March with us or rot in your grave as they bury you alive...

THIS IS TRUTH - SUCK IT UP

THIS IS LIFE - LIVE IT OR DIE

light or dark. fire or ice. hot or cold. alive or dead.

Jesus or the enemy. You Choose.

and live to witness one more song.

give up

God my Creator has recently challenged and dared me to give up.

Do I have what it takes as a pastor, husband, friend, and man to give it all up for Jesus?

Most people in this world, even those who confess they love Christ, do not have that certain

quality of selflessness that it takes to give up everything for Jesus.

I WANT THAT! I want to CONSUME whatever it is from the Spirit of Christ, that gives me that pure, undefiled SelfLESSness.

I am such a selfish jerk, wanting only what satisfies for a moment.

Jesus, I pray please let me be truly set apart for your purposes. I may the only one in a thousand miles who is this crazy, but if I do not live my life this way, who will?

I am so sick of the status quo. the moderate. the menial and mundane, do what i gotta to get by...

I am that person in my flesh, but my SOUL that is owned by Jesus is RAGGGGIINGGGG

to be the man that God has created me to be. RAGING. I should be MAD with selfless love.

I am in love with Jesus, but I could be so much more crazy about Him. HE DIED FOR ME.

His Dad, GOD, gave His Son, JESUS, to us to be the one and only Sacrifice for us so that WE would not Have to DIE.

and still we do not trust Him (?). and still we deny Him??!!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH US????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man we must be so stupid! we actually think that complaining about what someone said to us on a computer screen is important?

i mean, do we honestly need to spend more time figuring out what shirt to wear, which alcohol to drink, drug to try, person to "mess around with," movie to watch, freshman to insult, adult to cuss at, to get a divorce or not, or what kind of coffee to buy, THAN we need to spend time wondering how we should actually be acknowledging the FACT that there is a God who loves us?

this all does not add up.

let me clarify:

We are stupid humans. we sin. Jesus is perfect. He gave His life for us.

We do not have a chance in hell without Him.

and yeah......thats it for now.

bad days

i am having a bad day.

i hate bad days. now-a-days, bad days come in the form of the one that i love the most being

mad at me because i am being selfish and stupid.

i can be so dumb. i am such a pathetic husband.

i fear that i will not change.

but i also fight against fear, because it is what stops me from having good days.

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i feel horrible.

does it matter? in the grand scope of it all, does it matter?

who cares?

feeble am i compared to the power of the Great One.

dust and air and water.

how i wish i was fire. cleanse...

......................me........................from........

my sins.

nothing but the blood. not mine, yet oh so deserved to be shed upon the battlefield.

along with yours, as we fight side by side, back to back...

no one gets left behind.

may we all suffer.

head aches

woke up with a head ache....did not feel good. my wife is always there at the right times.

i cannot seem to make sense of anything today. it is all a blur. knocked over water glass....

---dropped papers. and the like...ughhh.

feelings dont run so deep today..........off day.

dont quite wanna be around people. dont wanna do what i gotta do. but i will because it is for others.

thats my job.

yep. it is what i do and i love it.

my dog is dumber than a post but he also brings us joy. sometimes i hope that i am bringing joy, even though i can be as dumb as a post.

haha...this is for the weary.

man....Jesus says for all the weary to come to him. wow. that means everyone. all people. no person is exempt, or with excuse. all should come to Christ.

Who are you to say that He does not care?

Who are you to deny Him, the ONLY one in this universe who invites you...YOU...the mess that you are....to come to Him?

Seriouosly. men. women. who are we?

in the limitless vastness of this life and world, the only one thing in this brief existence that we can put any morsel of hope in...ever....is Jesus Christ. for that I am so grateful.

man...seriously....isn't it so good to know that Jesus died for you, so that you even have a chance, and I mean maybe just once chance.....to not end up in hell?

And if you do not believe that...then dangit....AT LEAST I AM SAYING IT so you can hear the truth.

hmmm.......the truth sucks. but the sooner we grasp and accept it, the sooner we actually start living life.

Ha...Live life......You breath because Jesus created you and He gave you the gift of life.

think about it.

if you don't, you are wasting your life.

(don't buy it? read the Gospel of Matthew)

riding on a wave...

just like the ocean in a world that is void of land, so am i on a mountaintop that is void of sky.

there is nothing in between us that i want to cast away. there is something in between us that i must find, help me to find it. 

i love the help you give.